The light

I know that I'm still hoping, but it will wear off after that, slowly, but it will. I've learnt the lesson that is really disheartening to anticipate something that will less likely turn out your way, very little chances. Stop hoping for a miracle to happen fool, if he's sure that he wants to come back he would have already done so, he would have noticed you were missing yesterday he would have called yesterday. But there was nothing. Stop believing in his excuses, it shows that you just don't mean as much to him as his sleep. Stop hoping for a miracle to happen fool.

I think I'm doing well, few fits of crying but I will be good, better after that. I miss S.
I have to get over tomorrow no crying, control it well you fool.